My poor husband came home today with a migraine. We used to be able to pinpoint his migraines to either too much artificial sweetner or too much exercise, but this one doesn't fit the mold. I feel so helpless when he gets them. I've never had one thankfully, but they don't look like they are fun. I'm sure you can empathize with him trace.

These past couple of weeks, well actually past month or so I have really been struggling with discontentment with life. At first I just thought it was hormones, but now I'm starting to see that it's just selfishness creeping in on me again. At MOPS on Friday a lady spoke to us about moms being ministers and one of the things that we need to do as ministers is surrender all of ourselves and families to God. She primarily focused on surrendering our children, which I think that I have pretty much done that, but I realized that I have slowly taken my time back and have not surrendered it. I was praying yesterday and wondered if I was totally surrendered to God and He said I could have no more pop, or i couldn't watch Grey's Anatomy again or Amazing race or take naps during the day would i be ok with that. It sounds probably so silly, but I was not ok with that! But then I had to realize that if God was telling me to give that stuff up there was a good reason for it and that I would have even more peace and joy and intmacy with Him, which would be worth the sacrifice. If I'm honest with myself, I don't think I have fully convinced myself of that yet, but I'm working on surrendering all of my time to him one day at a time. It's hard because sometimes it's difficult to discern the best decision, but for the most part I know when I'm being selfish and when I'm doing ok, I was just in denial about it before. So it's been a better day today. Plus having Hannah sleep until 9:30am helps the day start off right too! :)

So I'm going to enjoy my hour of no kids to the glory of God!