The Musings of Michelle

Here is my attempt to not let those little precious moments go unforgotten...

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As I reflect back on my life so far I have realized that I'm really just an average girl, with an average life, living with an average disease. But what I do have is an AMAZING God who continues to blow me away with His love and His grace in my life. This is my attempt at putting into writing my journey so far.

Thursday, August 26, 2004

Wow has it really been almost a month since i've blogged. This month went by way too fast. It's been a good month though. I started a new part time job which has been an interesting adjustment for me. It's a home for pregnant women over 18 to try and help them prepare for motherhood and get back on their feet. The idea is a great one, but they don't quite seem to have it all together yet. But maybe that's why God has put me there! (oh wait, I don't quite have it all together yet either :) ) I work one day a week and I get to bring Hannah which is great, but so far it hasn't been the best of experiences for her which is hard on me, because I am so protective of her routine. And the fact that nothing seems to get accomplished there just reminds me of my last job in the office which is one of the reasons why i left. But what's interesting is in the past when I have felt like this in jobs, I felt like it was time to move on and I would struggle with guilt about giving up and not being content, but with this job, my flesh really wants to say it's not working out. I get paid next to nothing, it disrupts Hannah, and I feel like crying at the end of each day so far, but I feel a strong peace about it all that God wants me there for some purpose, so now it's just waiting on Him to see where it goes. Plus it confirms to me in the past that I was supposed to move on too. I do have such a heart for these girls and I'm very passionate about mothering, so hopefully God can use me to give them some wise tools to use in parenthood.

Hannah is getting so big and so much smarter each day. She's like a little person now. We can communicate with each other and she understands so much of what I am saying that I don't even realize it sometimes. She's been crawling everywhere and pulling herself up on stuff now. She's also getting a little more independent which has made things more challenging, but she really is such a sweet natured baby. We are very thankful!!

I've been selling some stuff on ebay and half.com. That's been fun. I've made about $25 so far. It makes for some good extra spending money. For those of you who may not have known this, you can buy stamps online and even print off postage labels for bigger packages right online and your carrier can pick them up from your home. I've been treking the post office about twice a week and now I don't have to. And I don't think it costs any extra either. You just have to know the weight of your package which is easy to do if you have any kind of scale. So just a little FYI for all of ya.

Well I must be getting packed for our trip to Cali! Fortunately thanks to Hannah's awesome aunt and uncle we won't have to pack nearly as much stuff for her! :) I can't wait to see Tracey and Matt and for them to see Hannah. It's going to be a great time.

Oh and just to comment on a few blogs. Thanks Mary for quoting your mom about when we disagree with each other it just pushes to the Lord to examine our own lives and beliefs. That was such a great way to look at that.

And Matt, I dont' think your blogs are boring at all and I look forward to reading them. I understand if you are done with them, but know that you still have blog fans out there. :)

Peas and carrots all!