The Musings of Michelle

Here is my attempt to not let those little precious moments go unforgotten...

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As I reflect back on my life so far I have realized that I'm really just an average girl, with an average life, living with an average disease. But what I do have is an AMAZING God who continues to blow me away with His love and His grace in my life. This is my attempt at putting into writing my journey so far.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

The fact that I am blogging again is definitely a good sign that things are starting to shape up around here. :) About a week after my last blog I finally had a breakdown and just let all my frustrations out to Ryan who so sweetly listened and comforted me. You would think I would have learned by now that I cannot hold in any intense emotions. I will tell myself that they will go away, but it usually takes crying and venting before they will and that is exactly what happened. It really was amazing...I woke up the next day feeling a little better and I just kept feeling better each day and now I feel like I am back to normal (I use that word loosely of course). This past weekend was really our first full weekend here so that was nice to have. Friday night I think we just hung out as a family...didn't really do anything too exciting...at least that I can remember. On Saturday we were all going to try a new church down the street from us, but I started getting nervous about if we really hated it and couldn't really escape if we had all 3 kids in the nursery, so we decided that Ryan would go and check it out for us. So he went and the kids and I walked over to the country store next door and since they have been playing so nice with each other lately, I let them pick out a treat. Hannah picked out an ice cream sandwhich and Caleb surprisingly did not pick out the same thing since he usually does and says everything she does. Instead he had his heart set out on a bit-o-honey candy piece. He would have been perfectly satisfied with just one piece, but I felt compelled to make it a little more even so he also picked out some gummy bears. And Joshua got a lollipop which he made him happy as a clam. Then we went exploring in the field and looked at the pond that Mike has dug and is in the process of trying to fill. I put some pics below from that day since it's easier getting pics from my phone onto the computer than it is from my camera. Some day I'll get some pics of our house on here too.


Ryan said the church wasn't bad and could be worth another look. I think we will try the Dayton Vineyard as well and see. Ryan saw some guy he works with there and after church he asked Ryan to go out for a beer which we thought was amusing. So Ryan went and then brought me back pretzel bites from Frickers (a local restaurant). Yummy! Our plan for the evening was for Ryan to play Halo on Xbox live with the Lexington guys while I surfed the net and maybe played some Catan. I know it probably sounds weird, but that just sounds like a great evening to me! I'm a nerd I know. :) Well apparently my router was causing problems with Ryan being able to play in the same game with the guys and the only way to get it to work was to plug it directly into the modem which meant no internet for me. Well needless to say I was not a happy camper, but I wasn't going to tell Ryan he couldn't play, so I decided that I would watch a little Friends in the kitchen and maybe unpack another box or 2. It ended up not getting on the internet was a blessing in disguise, because I got in the zone and ended up staying up until 6am unpacking. Being a night owl by nature and always having to fight it because kids are not, it was so much fun! Around 4am I got my second wind and as I was taking the box of good will stuff out to the car, I decided I needed a snack so I ran down to the gas station for a dew and a chocolate chip muffin. It was just what I needed to press on! I ended up unpacking everything but the decorations and a few office stuff which I don't have a home for yet. It felt really good to finally have a home to enjoy without unpacked boxes everywhere! And as the birds were chirping when I headed upstairs to bed, my sweet sweet husband had layed ear plugs out for me on my night stand and moved the monitor to his side of the bed. So I slept soundly until 11:30am.


I have more to post, but it's getting late so I will stop with that. More to come!


Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Just have a few minutes...we have been in our house now for about a week and we are slowly getting things unpacked. It is definitely harder moving and unpacking with 3 youngins running around. Ryan and I are both exhausted and the last couple of days I think you could have diagnosed me with a mild form of depression. I have not wanted to get out of bed and I have been so overwhelmed with what needs done that I have basically shut down. I have a small window in the morning when I seem pretty productive, but that is all I have really been able to do. Definitely the hardest thing about being a full time mom as I'm sure others would attest to is the fact that you cannot call in sick and boy could I have used a mental health day the past couple of days! And poor Ryan has been so busy at work and he needs a break just as much as I do, but I think he is able to take Thursday off so that will help. We are actually making good progress on the house if I look around, but I think in the back of my mind I know that this isn't permanent and we are going to have to turn around and do it all over again in a relatively short time period. I do hope now at this point that we can stay here at least a year that way it won't seem too useless. But I have been able to find some good bargains on some valances and decorations and that has really helped make it feel more like our own place. Anyhoo..not sure why I'm writing this...I guess just to get it out. I do feel a lot better today and the weather is absolutely beautiful, so we are going to the park. And actually I better get going so we aren't out too late. Well there is my debbie downer blog for the day. Next one will be more cheerful I hope!