I'm just sitting here on the bathroom floor watching sweet Hannah take a bath. She had a bit of an "explosion" which led to an early bathtime so she gets to play longer, so I thought I would grab my puter and blog for a minute. Good blog readings lately, except of course for ryan the slacker. Matt it makes me smile too that you work with someone named Igor. That made me laugh out loud. Welp Hannah and I are both sick which is poopy. (yes i just said poopy) and what makes it worse is that Ryan has been gone all week on training and he's at Dan's house all weekend putting on a roof, so that i've been a little stir crazy. but we did manage to get out to walmart today. woo hoo! i got hannah the cutest little swimsuit. i can't wait to try it on her. it's a little 2 piece bright pink gingum(sp?) with watermelons on it and the bottom has a little ruffle skirt on it. only 2 weekends before we leave for the ocean! it will be interesting to see how relaxing it will actually be with 4 kids, but it will definitely be fun.

hannah was on a little down time with new stuff, but she's picking up the pace again. i may have already mentioned some of this, but she can say ba ba and now she says ma ma ma. she loves to use my hands and stand up. she has strong legs, but her arms are still pretty weak so no crawling yet. the other day i mentioned reeces' name and she looked right at him. so i thought it might be a fluke, but later that night with Ryan I asked her where reeces is and she kept turning her head until she spotted him. it was so cute! and yesterday i think she may have started signing more! it seems too early though. do you know if it is trace? i'll ask her if she wants more and she'll clap her hands together. she's done it a few times now. she also does it when she doesn't want more, but she doesn't have the all done sign down yet. overall just being a cutie as always.

welp i think the water is getting cold now, so i better get the peanut. matt and trace your memorial day weekend sounds so fun. i love the idea of camping, but i've always wanted to go to mexico too..so i'm game for anything.

have a great weekend everyone!

i think i have started blogging a few times, but then get distracted. it must be my old age! :) i had a wonderful 30th birthday (as wonderful as turning 30 can be). Ryan's folks came down to visit and watch Hannah while we went out. We ended up not seeing a movie at all, because the timing didn't work out, but we went out for coffee which I haven't had since before I was pregnant with Hannah and then we went to church and group which was a great message and then out to eat. Then I got to open my presents with Ryan and his parents when we got back. I got dumbells from Ryan's folks and the Liar Liar dvd and some earrings from Ryan. And then Ryan's mom and I stayed up until 1am doing a crossword puzzle. Grandad would be proud!

This birthday has surprisingly been hard for me. I think it has been making me reflect on what i've accomplished so far in my life, because even though I can still feel young at heart, I really am no longer a "young adult". I think what hit me was that I really condiser myself to be spontaneous and a free spirit and here I am with the husband, kid, dog, living in suburbia and now with a fence (at least it's not a white picket one!) And not that this is a bad thing, but I just wanted to make sure I didn't have any regrets and looking back I think I have really done everything I have wanted to. Ryan and I did a ton of traveling and I got to see so much and I haven't let work and life get in the way of enjoying life (I probably need to let them get in the way a little more actually) and I can just bask in the absolute amazing blessings that God has given me and I feel at total peace that I am right where God wants me to be in the events of my life, but I can still tell that He wants so much more spiritually for my life. I continually say with my mouth and my head that I am completely his and I sing songs about giving my everything to him, but when i'm honest with myself, I can tell that I am still holding back a little, because I am getting too comfortable in my little world and I think just plain lazy. We had a missionary (John) speak to our group a couple of weeks ago and he said something that i have heard before, but had forgotten. John got to a place in his walk with Jesus that instead of inviting Him to come to work with him or where he was going John would ask God where HE was going today. John said surprisingly God was usually going to the same places, but in a couple of years when God said He was going to a foreign country, it made it easier for John to follow God there. And then this week at church the message was about the guy at the pool that Jesus asked if he wanted to be well? And the greek word that "well" comes from means whole. So in a sense Jesus is asking us, "Do we want to be whole" that has really stuck to me. Do I really want to be whole, do I want the abundant life that God has promised? And the answer of course is yes! but as he mentioned in his sermon, you need to stop making excuses and do what needs to be done. So that is my goal lately is to as one of our old pastors say "fake it until you make it"...every morning I am asking God to show me where He is going and I am listening for his direction. Even though right now it's not crystal clear to me, I know that if I keep it up, I will hear His voice louder and louder and hopefully he will take me through exciting experiences where I can really see him work. I also am getting involved in an accountability group with my girlfriends so I am hoping that will help keep me on track too.

welp there's my emo blog for the day. Time to get Hannah bannana up!

"I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I know I can love you, I know that I can..." -Kendall Payne, closer to myself

Wow..such a memory blast when I read the bridge to terebithia. One of the few books i actually enjoyed in school. i think i must have been going thru a lot of insecurities at that time, because it also brought back a lot of emotions. but anyhoo just thought i'd comment on that. i can't wait to be out in san diego in a few months! can we grill out hot dogs on the beach?!

tonight was a little stressful trying to get hannah to take her medicine for her ear infection. she flails her arms about and clamps her mouth shut. she's no dummy! so i finally get her antibiotics down her and then I wait a little bit and try to get some motrin down her so she'll sleep better and ...(sorry tracey, u may want to skip this next part) she projectile vomited everywhere. so i had to give her a bath and i rocked her for awhile to calm her down. who knows if any of the medicine stayed in her. oh well not sure why i needed to vent about that here.

ok back to american idol. peace out!

I've been a blog slacker! I started a post the other day, but got distracted. I can't remember all that's happened since my last blog, plus I wouldn't want to bore you all, but let's see.... we have a fence now! that's been fun. our friends dan and donny helped ryan out and it only took 2 days. ryan is going to help dan put on a new roof in a couple of weeks, so that will make up for it. but donny just did it to help out. we are so blessed with great friends!! we still have the gate to put together and put on, but that will hopefully only take a couple of hours. it will be so nice to let reeces run around outside. he'll love it i'm sure. i am afraid that i will forget about him though. i let him outside at my parents house and usually you have to stay outside with him because there are too many holes in the fence, but i really had to use the bathroom, so i went inside for a minute, but then something must have distracted me because I completely forgot to go back out and get him. I then walked Hannah down to this church that was having a rumage sale and on my way back i see this dog running around the neighborhood and i thought, "mmm that looks like reeces. oh crap i forgot about reeces!"

hannah and ryan were good to me on mother's day. since i've always joked that taking a shower is like going to the spa for me, especially when hannah was first born, they gave me some stuff to help make it better. i got some great smelling body wash from victoria's secret, some massage oil, and a cd shower radio. my old one broke and showers just haven't been the same since. so now i have my kimberly locke cd in there. yes this is kimberly locke from american idol. to my defense, i did not purchase it, my sister gave it to me as a birthday present, but i actually do like it. there are some good songs on it.

i can't believe that i am going to be 30 this weekend! uuuggghhh!!!! now that i'm working out and eating better, it's definitely making it a little easier since i don't feel so old and feeble anymore. ryan's parents are coming down to celebrate with us and they are going to watch hannah on saturday so ryan can take me out. i can't wait! we are finally going to see lord of the rings and i think we are going to go for some coffee at this fun coffee shop we haven't been to since before i was pregnant since i couldn't have that much caffeine.

only 4 1/2 weeks until we are on the beach! i was hoping that i would fit into my summer clothes before then, but i don't think it's going to happen. i guess it still could. i'm going to wait until the week right before we leave before i buy a suit and some clothes. i was really down on myself for a while, but i realized it's not going to do any good and as long as i am heading in the right direction that's all that matters.

we took hannah to the doctor today. she's been a little off lately and we thought it was because she was teething, but last night we took her temperature and it was 103 so we knew it was something else. my guess was an ear infection and that's what it was. poor thing! she's probably had it for a couple of weeks now, but the symptons of teething and ear infections are so similiar. but she'll be as good as new in a couple of days. i got her 6 month pictures back this week. they turned out soo good! i'll have to try and scan them in somewhere and post them.

i am basically not working at all anymore except for pampered chef. apparently they decided that the company that is approving them for the fda would be better to debug the remaining issues. once my bruised pride is healed, i'm sure i'll see that it probably is better that way. but since i don't seem to get paid anymore, the motivation isn't really there anyway. so hopefully the pampered chef will give us a little fun money. i had my first show a couple of weeks ago and it went pretty well. i have 2 more next week. i am hoping that after these 2 i will break even on my initial investment and then start profiting.

well i fear that this blog may be hitting the boredom state, so i will end it here. have a great rest of the week!

"i think i fell in love with the 8th world wonder" - kimberly locke :)